Why do I like to write? Writing was "Hobby" when I was a teenager and didn't need to have much time, because writing is a daily activity where every time I always pour in a diary, and thought to be the best, one of my dreams as a writer but, it was a dream in broad daylight ...

Everyday, basic writing as a result is only a failure due to the lack of knowledge about "What is the meaning of your words", and all those who like to write must be based on the hearts of our souls to not pretend,

However, writing is poured in various means, which we must do repeatedly, where we must be able to spend at least 1 day each week, about writing many things, such as our daily activities, and I use that time, to switch from the past to the past, by exploring yourself, using your limited time to always love reading and also writing diligently.

Here, I find my identity; as a writer, but I could not write Indonesian well, because as a teenager at that time, I liked to write about daily activities using English for about 40 years. Sometimes this self feels different from others, but I always speak Indonesian well, so "Never Give Up" to myself, to write Indonesian and I will try harder to become better.

Could there be something wrong with this ....?

And how can I form into a formidable person in the world of literacy writing?

Who changed me ...?

Some questions that always land in the inbox of my loyal fans ...

Well, we will peel together in a variety of ways that I can scratch in "My Purple", where it is he who always accompanies me every time this feeling down without him this hand will feel itchy and painful, aching feels... somehow?

Actually there is nothing to blame ... why every time you make a status in Social Media always use foreign language, nothing is wrong ...? Right now I'm trying to push myself to always write using my everyday language ... that is, Indonesian, smooth ... does it feel awkward ... or I can't, and should I go back to zero again!

Alhamdulillah, it turns out that every prostration has been granted by Allah swt ... and every writing that I always scratched in, "My Purple" has become 2 books at once, the unending spirit at all times has paid off from the pain of pain that never disappears into scribbles in my poetry book collection; although origin but many also like it ... 2018 precisely in March, I was met with a writing community; namely Media Guru, from there I learned to make books, I took from my poetry collection 2 books as encouragement to my life have been published and validated in real terms.

The plot of my story about the life journey story that I have been going through has been written in 2 books as a guide to life as well as a small or harsh tease that I must take care of and care for ... no one else pouts; but I feel happy and happy because my writing has been well channeled. Starting from zero is a bit of an obstacle in me .... well ... I must explain in detail here ...

That when I started zero writing this ... every time there was a "Challenge", I tried to follow it in other words; both those who speak Indonesian or English, for the sake of honing how much knowledge I have and I share in the event the writing event. And thank God, this unrelenting self is always grateful that I can get through from zero to one hundred percent.

I must have failed to become a champion in the writing event, writing myself never felt down, because it was not typical myself as a coward ... only writing could not be champion ... wow I would not cry like a child who lost his lollipop; I must stand tall, whatever the obvious outcome must be myself.

Even more interesting in this writing event I can join with some writing communities; one of them is KMO Aleniaku Batch 15; from Yogyakarta where I became acquainted with friends from Sabang to Merauke, I joined as a member precisely in November 2018 (Nonfiction).

At that time I was just for fun, but after I entered the world of writing, thank God, this self became more and more motivated. In the world of writing, we are taught ‘to be sincere in sharing knowledge and receiving criticism from all friends ... it is normal; and don't be discouraged in the world of literacy writing. The various professions that I have met here; and does not preclude all friends to establish themselves in the same achievement together as a venue for hospitality.

Write writing itself if we do not sharpen it into a work that is personal; it will feel prehistoric ... and it is true, do not cover yourself as a person who excels or even those who are learned ... O friends, share your knowledge so that later as a field of reward; when this self is gone ... a piece of invitation slave to always practice knowledge to others who need it without feeling suspicious, only feelings of love and affection for others.

Constraints that the author is afraid of?

For a beginner to enter the world of authorship; maybe one of the obstacles that is often feared is not having an idea, always stuck on the spot, confused about how to start, afraid that if the writing is not read by the public, inferior to senior writers, if it has become a work confused how to market it, with obstacles what is sometimes forgotten is whether I can be like those who have become famous writers; by seeing the number of works that are piled everywhere - the style of language that is always neat or straightforward, and still thinking of ways of self-editing; which sometimes after we write the mind always want to edit what we have written before, this is what makes the beginner writers can not progress quickly and precisely.

In cases like this, usually this self when when in front of "My Purple", immediately typing hands without looking left and right, wrong letters, wrong spaces, or most typo in our writing, I just guided, "I don't care", and I just want to write ... get in touch with ourselves, and repeat what we have rewritten ... and more or less train our brains to think openly; by visiting one of the places I usually call, "My Silent Place"; yes, there is my mind little bit fresh ... in other words bookstores, libraries might also be places that have a plus; where we feel the roar of fresh air, looking at the nano-nano shades of the sky and with natural enjoyment steeping, Insha Allah you will quickly get an inspiration in writing, instinctively we have obtained the psyche, let alone surrounded by a shade of green that dangles up to yourself do not forget to always say that feeling ... thank, God Almighty ... which favor would you lie about ...

From the beginning I was involved in the world of literacy, there were obstacles that motivated me to always think positively; My biggest obstacle is the support from the closest person ... yeah, my heart feels torn - torn, when the intention to try to teach knowledge turns out to have a big obstacle ... there is no agreement, and I just hope that one day he will accept what I have notched. .. I'm not afraid ..., keep moving forward ... do not be discouraged, keep trying to convince ..., and always think positive.

Indeed, there are times when the author's mood is "Up and Down", without us knowing this will have an impact on the body as well our writings influence each other ... whatever we describe ... will surely form into a very beautiful sentence ... and who will judge others of course ... whereas this self-writing has made it a place of concern since in junior high school until this self has aged. And I'm not dependent on moody ... because if moody is good ... I can write ..., if moody is bad ... thank God I can still write with nimble, this hand always dancing - enjoying with enjoy ...

So, to encourage yourself so that your writing is not crisp ... multiply reading; read the writings of someone you admire ..., find books that are interesting inside and outside, meaning that the cover is okay and the contents are okay too, maybe it could be tucked in a little with, "Stabilo", meaning that if there are foreign words or sentences, we just give a line with highlighter, to be safe, * (lipstick) slang; we rewrite it in a note; whose contents are about foreign words, and don't forget to use KBBI as your guide, if when I write nothing I forget it ... maybe because you are too confident ... ha ha ha ha ... but never mind, it's not too late in studying authorship ... because for me personally studying is mandatory for all levels ... house wife is no exception like myself ...

Who changed me?

Questions that arise when I always write from a number of social status (facebook, twitter, blog, whattUp); yeah, the unexpected thing came at once ... the curiosity of someone who is looking for, how's his friend? Here too, sometimes many are closed or even consider it to be normal, not even a little what they do is "Pretending to be", in other words pretending to be someone else; not so with me. What I write in the social media is "The real story of my life", which means the story of my real life. There is a slight difference, between real and asphalt but it does not rule out the possibility that it is only divided into 1% as a reality and 99% as a fake.

So, finally I found what’s the meaning of ...

Yeah, I find myself not as a doll; who only nodded when asked, but I found that I had to change my true life path; "Transformation", why should it be ...! The living person must make a choice, and life must have a purpose that is what I currently do, and for me to open the veil is not as a scourge or taboo but a choice that must be continued towards a better. A friend once said, do what you like and don't because you are an official or a sinner; but do it if it will make you happy, happy, and be yourself. My friend's words turned out to be true; and I do little by little, the thing I like the most is writing; an activity that is very easy and cheap enough to be elaborated.

Hijjrah for peace of soul

I organize myself to be myself where no one should be questioned, there is no need to lie, because I want to return like myself in the age of 12 years; free, loose, like a bird flies to a place where you find ultimate peace. I found in my life journey, where all that I have gained and achieved ... but lost like a dust that melts into a lump of earth and fire that always envelops in the heart.

Peace of soul is the most important thing, no one can ride ... whether it's friends, relatives, or nuclear family, because it is personal ... because of that; hearing from what someone talked about with me, I found the best solution, where I want to continue the hidden hobbies to become a force in my soul that I have to manage well ...

Nothing for this self, to open up all the power in my subconscious, making migrate as the ultimate goal in self-development. Because I collected a lot of writings - the writings in "My Story of Life", in my memory notes (my brain), and my soul order - to turn it into a beauty that is very beautiful and quality. Yeah, because time can't turn back like when I was so innocent and naive ... who is now old ... "My brain is exploding", so I must always and must thank God for robbi because I am still given time ' to change the course of my life, limping without asking for help with others and only rely on me alone, so I can stand up straight ... but this is not 100% and I must have to try ...

My Book is My Survivor

Entering a relatively young age is no longer young, and has a lot of myriad knowledge that only I keep in my heart ... just makes myself burdened ... and to a degree I feel prejudiced about myself; Why is that? Because what I experience in living my life, "Legitimate Theater", always makes people think that I am just a blot without touch ... their love and affection; with a million steps I finally decided 'to make a story in a confession book ... yeah, born 2 collections of books simultaneously ... and I know, there are scribbles in the parasite ... but all that does not make me recede for not continue again ..., and I must be able to stand up ... at the birth of these two books, my third child said, "Why are your books the contents are so sad"? Is that your personal, problem mom ...?

Yes, that's right ... I know you will be cry when you read it, but it's true and I never expected the first review to be my daughter ...

From there, I always write hard every day, until I write a novel, article, blog, (but before I have written first, it's just not made into a book); at that time 1998 about 11 years ago ... when I was familiar with the world of the internet ... and laptops are still old school PC alias pentium ancient times, (college age semester 3). Unintentionally awakening me ‘to try to follow the competition in the path of writing ... as a means of propaganda and hobbies that make my heart happy also be myself ....

My windows close to Allah

Insha Allah, "A Sign from Him", appears at the exact moment at my lowest point, falls and it is Allah who guides me to be more patient, tawadhu, tawakal and forgiving at every opportunity; for me writing is a means of therapy my heart that has long been crushed and dying which it really made me, to immediately get up quickly.

Because my pride and arrogance bemoan all that God has outlined to every human being, which has been given a very large portion; but all that makes me despicable and not only because of lust for a moment, but myself became tested by God Almighty; where humans should be able to enjoy the test to be more mature, more introspective and even more confident; that I can get through it all.

The test of life of every human being is always measured according to my ability, the limit of my level of patience in this matter, truly full of strength and independence; because I couldn't get past this if only my best friend wasn't by my side ... and he was the one who strengthened me so that I could stand up straight ...

Because my way of life always varies in every way, it's just that I am unable to manage alone; the person I really believed turned out to stab me in the back ... and I was blown away by a time bomb that was ready to explode ... whatever effort I made to try to get back up ... only I had to close my inner eyes not to accept anything that has been engraved in my soul and body ..

Yes, only to the Divine Robbi I bow down to do the heart's heart so as not to be denied again, and I can strengthen my efforts to immediately make one shake up, which is certain and produce ... thank God I can write again ... and "Miracle Happen" in my life. it's never too late ... especially in my dictionary, because that science can definitely be retrieved ... and I share it with sincere intentions and only seek the blessings of Divine Robbi.

My thought always "Come True"

Alhamdulillah, prostration of gratitude when I was called to take part in the writing event in an International event; which is where many people pout me even cursing myself, that this self is incapable ... however ... Allah is always on the side of the weak, and my spirit continues to flow swiftly so that I can make a novel where it is there is a chance of this self as a winner ... but all of that is indeed not easy, because those who take part in the event from various countries ... will this self win?

For a novice writer like me; Winning in an event can be categorized as extraordinary, but in my intention here, I just want to find a new breakthrough, not because this self succumbs to not winning, but I want to find friends from all walks of life to include world literacy at the event; because I want to know more about my new world ... where only; pen and notebook the provision of a daily life of a writer, and it's always in my bag ... for some reason this has become me increasingly challenged ....

In this International event, I only describe what I feel and what I often experience in my daily life, it's just that my background is language; and that is my main obstacle ..., I can only write in a foreign language, because everyday I always talk to children using a variety of languages; which is very easy for me because we often practice it, not only that even the children master foreign languages; including English, French, Spanish and Hungarian.

At the event I used English, French and thank God I could be proud to represent Indonesia, one of the judges from Asia (Malaysia), after the event was over; it turns out that this self is challenged to continue in the second event, which is making "Short Story", with the genre of romance, and the second novel is born where the novel is still in position 1 in the tag line #diploma and for my first novel myself including position 1 in the tag line #wildgirl I hope my efforts can produce maximum results until this event will be closed.

It turns out that in this International event there are so many other events that we must know together especially, for beginners to open horizons or new breakthroughs so that they can arouse enthusiasm in interacting with the world of authorship abroad, whoever you are, has the right and obligation to play an active role in introducing our writing Into the international scene, the main key if someone says you do not deserve, read and tell yourself that you deserve it.

These pearls of wisdom are closing remarks, so that later what you read can be useful to many people; "Demand Knowledge from the fruit to the grave".

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